Awkward feelings

I have mixed feelings right now. First, I feel like I want to be with Joe for forever. Then, he does something completely stupid, like goes drinking with a bunch of shady characters. I mean, I should have seen that coming.
And of course... I have two songs to dedicate to him... the first is Apocalyptica featuring Cristina Scabbia..... S.O.S. (Anything but Love)

Bound to your side and trapped in silence
Just a possession
Is the sex or only violence
That feeds your obsession

You send me to a broken state
Where I can take the pain
Just long enough
That I am numb
That I just disappear

So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
Tell me I asked for it
Tell me I'll never forget
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love

Does it feel good tonight
Hurt me with nothing
Some sort of sick satisfaction
You Get from mimd fucking

Oh stripped down to my naked core
The darkest corners of my mind are yours
That's where you live
That's where you breathe

So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
Dare me to leave you
Tell me I'd never forget
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love

Without any faith
Without any light
Can dare me to live
Can dare me to lie
Inside I am dead

So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
I'll be the victim
You'll be the voice in my head
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love

The next one on the list is Sugarland.... Stay

I been sittin' here staring
At the clock on the wall
And I been layin here praying
Praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone
And I'll be crying
And I'll be beggin you baby
Beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting
With my heart on my sleeve
Oh for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years
And I think I'm dying

What do I have to do to make you see
She can't love you like me

Why dont you stay
Im down on my knees
Im so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We dont have to live this way
Baby why dont you stay

You keep telling me baby
There will come a time
When you will leave her arms
And forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used
And I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bare
To love a man you have to share

Why dont you stay
Im down on my knees
Im so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We dont have to live this way
Baby why dont you stay

I can't take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute
After all that I've put in it
I've given you my best
Why does she get the best of you
So the next time you find
You wanna leave her bed for mine

Why dont you stay
Im up off my knees
Im so tired of being lonely
You cant give me what I need
When she begs you not to go
There is one thing you should know
I dont have to live this way
Baby why dont you stay

So, this is basically how I feel about him right now. It's awful...

OMG!!!

So, I just got into watching this series on CMT called "Can you Duet?". Well, they just announced the winners and I am so damn excited that Caitlin Fisher and Will Snyder won it. They were put together by the judges. And they looked like they hit it off from the beginning. Needless to say, their one performance that hit me the hardest was they're rendition of "Like We Never Loved at All" by Faith Hill and Tim McGraw. I have the link to the video... and hopefully it will be added to my blog.
http://www.cmt.com/videos/misc/239169/can-you-duet-110-performances-caitlin-will-caitlin-fisherwill-snyder-like-we-never-loved-at-all.jhtml

#1

So, this is the first time I've ever blogged before. I have never had the need to. I was using a different website for this. But when life got too complicated to explain on that page, and feelings were hurt and crushed, I changed. My friend actually told me about this website. I had never needed something like this before. So... hopefully this will stay a little more private then the other one!